I’ve always been obsessed with productivity yet I’ve also always struggled with it. I’m obsessed with it simply because I just dig things being orderly. I blame my autism hahaha.
I’ve spent my entire life, from my teens all the way till recently, trying to figure out why productivity was so difficult and unsustainable for me. I was accused of lack of attention to detail, laziness, disorderliness, not following through etc. for years.
Today, I understand that I live with rather severe executive dysfunction. However, that is not a death sentence. I realised that I just needed to understand how my executive dysfunction actually works and then I can hack it.
It took months and months and months of experimenting, reflecting, going over data, self-analysis but I finally hit upon the biggest why that blew my mind away.
I am a profoundly gifted person who thinks in simultaneous-instantaneously multi-dimensions-directions in spatial context through proprioceptive sensation… … … Show me one productivity book out there that teaches me how to translate this into the necessary two-dimensional linear format necessary for task execution in the physical world?
So take for example, right this red hot minute, I am in the process of setting up outsourcing to two beautiful gifted peers to help me manage my executive dysfunction and increasing work load.
I know how the solution looks and feels like in my native modality… I can see-feel the structure within my cognitive-somatic form, however, I am struggling to translate that into linear language to convey.
I have had some people argue that that means that: A) I don’t actually know what I want yet, and/or B) It is too complex and therefore not viable or practical.
And I believed them and for years, I guilted and shamed myself into thinking that I never knew what I wanted or needed and that I sucked because I couldn’t simplify. Sigh!
Today, I know otherwise. It’s been a few months of experimenting with just sitting with the sensation and complexity… practicing the faith and patience needed to trust, trust that yes, I do know what I am doing, it just looks a hell lot different from 99% of the world!
And true enough, my hypothesis was proven correct, and I think this applies to almost all HEPGs.
Most, if not all, HEPGs think spatially. Many also think somatically. However, execution in the physical world is pretty much linear, time and language based and there is nothing wrong with that. That’s just the requirement of the reality we exist in.
Yet that also doesn’t invalidate our innate modality of being, thinking and creating. The trick is to do what is needed to honour both.
In my case, it means giving a lot more time to the percolation process. This means that I do things a lot slower than most people, but on the other hand, the creations and solutions I come up with are also not commonplace.
It is easy to execute simple things fast. Big, complex, deep and particularly novel things take time. Just because it’s complex and slow doesn’t mean it has no value. It just means it has different value and diversity is essential for all life.
I trust the being process to result in the natural emergence of a communicable, linear format with which I can share with the world, and so far, it has not let me down. It’s screwed around with my time schedules a bit though, but that’s also because that’s just the nature of the process when I’m new to it. I am still learning how to understand and integrate it well. Note, I didn’t say manage.