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I am changeable.
Almost disconcertingly so to the people who know me. I am forever transforming. And it is markedly visible, noticeable, even to people who live with me.
I was not always this way. More accurately, I did not always allow myself to be this way.
I remember the first time I decided to embrace and express a new change in myself, in my personality. I was in my late teens.
I was happy and I was proud of my decision internally. I felt freer for having chosen and embraced my inner transformation.
Then a very close friend of mine took me aside one day and said the following words to me, very seriously, “You have changed. I don’t like the new you. I liked you better before you changed.”
I never forgot that moment. It was emblazoned in my mind like an indelible scar.
I learnt that it was wrong to express the new person I knew I had become on the inside even if it made me happier. [click to continue…]
After many, many years of experience and contrast, it has all finally come together.
I am finally launching my professional seminar series, entitled The Dialogue.
Why ‘The Dialogue’?
For years, I was daunted at the prospect of running seminars, even though I was told repeatedly that I had the talent for speaking on stage.
I do not doubt that I can speak and present, however, my question was more, “Is that what I really want?” It is easy for a third party to look at me from the outside and say, “Yes, you can speak well, you ought to do this.”
Speaking alone is not the point. Speaking is but a tool, a medium. The real question was always, “What do I want to achieve?”
- What do I want to accomplish?
- What is my real talent?
- What am I really here to do? [click to continue…]
It is easy to succumb to feeling that life is hard, or not going our way, at least occasionally.
Particularly when there seems to be no reason to why certain bad things happen.
When everything just seems to be out of our control and some unseen force appears to be scheming to bring about our downfall in every possible way.
The whole world, nay the whole universe, seems to be against us.
And someone comes along, usually a spiritual person of some sort *cough cough* and tells you that, “All is well, all is well.”
Reminds me of this exchange…
“What about Rhiannon’s kidnapping?” Brian made a desperate attempt to get some sign of emotion out of his father, to ensure he hadn’t turned into a zombie. “Surely you’re concerned about that. She is your granddaughter, after all!”
“Why concerned?” Myrddin queried. “All is going splendidly.”
“Splendidly!” Brian barked. “If this is what you call splendid, I’d sure hate to see your idea of shithouse.” [click to continue…]
Do you fear death? You wouldn’t be considered unique or weak if you said yes.
I think that the fear of death is completely natural. Death is an unknowable state to the living. What we do not know, we fear. Simple as that.
I used to have a terrible phobia for death as a child. I had it all the way up to my teens. My phobia was so bad that I actually had frequent nightmares about dying.
In one of my earliest death nightmares, I was stabbed to death by a man who broke into my house. I ran desperately to escape him but I tripped and fell and he was upon me and stabbed me three times in my back.
I woke up panting raggedly, covered in sweat, and had three very distinct icy cold spots on my back where I felt the blade enter my body in my dream. [click to continue…]
We are never ready for change.
We can never anticipate when the time for change comes upon us.
We can only choose, and leap, in the moment.
If change could wait for readiness, or if we could foresee change, change would not be so tough to accomplish.
Change is a choice.
Change is a leap.
There is never a good time.
But you will find that if you make that choice, and that leap, when the time is upon you, the outcome will always be in your favor.
For that is what change is always and only about.
I will not say much because I feel that to speak too much of the magic of the moment is to debase and disrespect the sacredness of the encounter.
All I will say is this:
To be able to share such a powerfully intimate moment of spiritual connection with a Cassowary as I did today, is a gift beyond all comprehension, measure and description.
It is a blessing to be be humbled and awed by a power animal as potent, magnificent and indescribably poised and regal as a Cassowary.